Thursday, February 26, 2009 Y
haiz..i couldn't focus on anything these few days.
i don't know what i was doing..
i fell from high ground.
it hurt so badly, that the pain cuts through my soul.
i want to do sth useful.
i don't want computers or psp anymore.
it only distracts me.
i want to study.
but the assessments aren't out yet.
i could not start anything,
this is just a waste of time.
money seems so precious to everybody this year,
people retrenching each other just to fight for money for the sake of their families.
I'm facing financial problems right now.
i need to pay for tuition fees, assessments. all.
it seems like they couldn't afford it anymore.
my money in the bank is decreasing..
i want to work. but the thought of coming exams scares me.
i guess i will have to wait for help.
my feelings towards God is really fading.
I'm losing faith for him..
every time i go church, i don't feel his presence anymore.
those sermons aren't for me.
its meaningless to me.
haiz..i always wanted His help, but somehow it just failed.
and it hurts me badly.
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Friday, February 20, 2009 Y
although today i did not go to sch, but i wasn't feeling any much better..
I'm so tired with my life. i cannot take any more of those nonsense, but thinking of my studies, i want to strive for it.
study aren't difficult. its the matter of listening and paying attention, most importantly, practising.try out difficult questions. the most of all importants is to pray hard. i always do that at the starting of each paper. And all i need to do is to recall, recall and only recall. good right. its really amazing to see how God works. He's my beloved Father.
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Friday, February 13, 2009 Y
GooOOOoooDness~...
i've been so tired these days.
i just need a break from books and notes.
it seems like they reconize me, but i dont.
confused,confused and confused.
dont know what the hell those teachers are talking about.
just wanna stay at home and relax on my bed.
or even to complete my cross-stitch hopefully by tomorrow.
thats if my mum helps me.):
hmm..todays bag was painful for my back.
walk around with it. i did sth crazy today.
and im ready to recieve bad comments on monday.
but i just think that its perfectly fine and it goes with me.
hahahahaha..wait till u see, guys(:
im boiling in my study room now.
lols.
today mr sam had a fall out with grace.
and it seems that i have learnt a lesson out of it..
but nvm. i just wanna care about my bestest sista.
all the best!
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Wednesday, February 4, 2009 Y
my God, what am i suppose to do now.
i miss him so much.
my study mood just goes off like that..
man, i need to concentrate more.
these few weeks like so boring.
valentines coming. im so excited.
but most of the time, my plan doesnt work out the way i wanted.
damn..
gosh. i think i missed you too much,
that i started off the day by falling off the stairs.
now my butt got this blue black..
*cries*
called you just now, u nvr answer.
wanted to ask you about ur condition of ur eye.
hmm..worried. wondering what are you doing and how are you now.
Phew, What a Day.....
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